Big news in our house has been shared around lately! Our family of three will officially be FOUR as of mid-November!!
Yes, it was planned... Yes, we will find out what we are having... And YES, we are excited... Most of the time. (Are those all the questions answered?)
You know how you have those moments after you make a big decision and you think... well... you think: WHAT WAS I THINKING!!! Well welcome to the inside of my brain :) My emotions are constantly fluctuating between pure joy and excitement over getting to hold a newborn baby, my baby! Getting to see their face for the first time, getting to hold their little fingers, and speculate as to future eye colour and temperament! It's all good.... Until the memories seep in of a four limbed octopus squishing up your insides And stretching all your outsides, the sleepless nights, both pre and post the birth of the precious little cherub, and the months of not quite being sure which way is up and wondering what to do with this screaming four limbed octopus that you now have to clean and feed.
It is in these moments that I take stock of my own still attached limbs and the hair that has not yet fallen out and think... Ok, I've done it once, I can do it again... Until I hear "Mum, Mum, Mum, Mum, Mum, Mum" (and on it goes). And then I REALLY start to worry... and cry... and typically at this moment hubby walks in and, I'm sure, thinks 'here we go again!'
Once my emotions are settled, once I've had my big glass of warm milk (yes, exciting I know!!) and snuggled up in bed with my big little girl (and maybe put on some postman pat ;)) I remind myself that it is all good. I remind myself I am not the first to do this, nor will I be the last. I remind myself that I am blessed beyond measure to be able to have another child. I remind myself that I am blessed with the people I have in my life and that I am NOT alone in this either!
Honestly, pregnancy is TOUGH! And if you're one of those people that just love it, be incredibly grateful. (And I am truly happy for you!!!) But man... Pregnancy for me is tough. Having a toddler to parent while being pregnant is also tough. I'm not sure I can do this again if I'm being honest! It takes a lot of mental strength as well as physical strength. Women are amazing, we are incredibly awesome and what our bodies can do is absolutely astounding, but it doesn't make the job any easier! But at the end of this all I will have two little 'cherubs' to cuddle and love and laugh at (and with) and learn from and teach.
And here I am... Back at excitement... A bit of lingering trepidation, sure, but thankful!
P.S. Gender reveal coming soon!!!