In New Zealand, where I live, the koru symbolises new life, growth, and strength. I think that often in life we hope for do overs, to restart, to try again. Whether that is possible I don't know, but I know we can try. Everyday we have the ability to wake up with the goal of being the person we hope to be. Everyday we hope for that new beginning.
I had a daughter earlier this year. My beautiful little girl brings me so so much joy, she brings beauty into my life in ways I never knew were possible. I want to be a better me not just for me, but for her. As her mum I want to be the best I can be. In the same way that my mum has been an example of strength and character, an example of how to be a wife, a friend, a mum, I want to do the same for my girl.
I'm a dreamer, my husband and I were talking on our way home from a trip yesterday about how I loved to dream about what the future could look like for us. I asked him where he wanted to be in 5 years and his answer was: "debt free and in a good job". He asked me the same question and I responded with things like I want to have travelled the world, and I want to have decorated a house, and be writing a blog. At first I worried at how different we are, on the surface his answers seem so sensible and my answers seem so flighty, not compatible at all. But when I think about it more, they are the perfect answers, they show that we need each other, that we are the perfect match. My husband teaches me and balances me out, and I do the same for him. Hopefully with both of us working together, we will not only survive, but we will LIVE. I want to LIVE. I want to live for my family. I want my little girl to see a mum who is LIVING life, LOVING life, being exactly who I was made to be, with who I was made to be with.
Cheers to a life of love and living...
love Jess xx